

The Lord has blessed me with wonderful gifts, He has shown His love for me in many ways, However, there are three of which today, I am most especially grateful. After years of searching for someone, To fill the enormous size 8 shoes, Of my Pop who taught me about faith, God has shown me, His marvelous love. Father Pat's gift of blindness, Teaches me to see with my soul, His fantastic accomplishments, Makes me feel like I can fly. Father Ron's gift of support, Gives me the strength and the fortitude, To pursue my hopes and dreams, To share my love of the Lord. Father Kent's gift of courage, Shows me how to overcome, My shyness and fear of people, And is coaxing me out of my shell. Together their gifts are a beacon, To those of us in the darkness, Giving us all the perseverance, To follow the footprints in the sand.July 28, 2006
FYI - This Poem Gift was in the front of every Purple Poetry Path Booklet (Volumes 1-8)
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Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven. --Matthew 5:16 God has given me the gift of His words, To share with others in the world, The messages He wants to be heard. My life has been spent hiding, From angry, frustrated parents, Who lost sight of the Lord. Protected and sheltered, From peers who mock and tease, Leaving scars difficult to heal. Concealed in a modern day shell, Feeling invisible to the world, Safe inside the bubble. Until the day the bubble burst, And God's love came pouring in, Washing free the guilt of time. Stand in the light my precious one, Was what He said to me, Shine forth my gifts for all to see. So, here I stand open and vulnerable, Showing my love of the Lord, my God, Sharing His words for all to hear.July 28, 2006
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New day New year New life Old roads New paths New adventures Old acquaintances New friends New relationships Old challenges New struggles New growth Old habits New patterns Infinite possibilitiesDecember 28, 2003
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The world cane be so cold God's love shields us HE opens doors Closed upon us by others. God's love is real Those who trust in HIM Receive abundance HE gives us all we need. Even when we turn from HIM Closing our minds and hearts All HE asks for is a chance To melt our anger with HIS love. Those broken by the world Can turn to the Lord HE will heal their pain And turn their sorrow into joy. Those who truly believe Those that give HIM their heart Nothing is impossible Their world is wide open. HE loves us so much And wants to heal our brokenness HE wait patiently Beyond the open door.October 12, 2004
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The two met at the base of the mountain Although they both had some experience Neither one was an advanced climber But they both wanted an adventure. The path started out as all paths do, Easy to being with, But over time it became more challenging. Pebbles became stones. Stones became rocks. Rocks became ledges. They start out individually. Each doing their own thing, They stuck up a conversation, Soon they were walking together along the path. The sun was shining and the breeze was light They exchanged stories of previous climbs Although their climbs were very different They both had been hurt before Their falls were frightening Each had sustained serious injuries Both physical and emotional But they were willing to try again. They met other climbers as they hiked up the mountain. Some passed them as they went up, Others were coming back down, Some even walked with the pair for a while. Watching the pair from a distance was a third person. HE has been watching them when they first met. The woman knew HE was there, but the man did not. They started out individually Each doing their own thing They struck up a conversation Soon they were walking together along the path Watching the pair from a distance was a third person HE had been watching them when they first met The woman knew HE was there, but the man did not. As the terrain became stepper, They used their ropes and pulleys, Each had to rely on the other. The safe spots varied Sometimes the lead was short Sometimes it was long When she had the lead, she implored God's help Therefore, she pulled him almost effortlessly up the mountain He just assumed she was not working as much as he was Although he had the best equipment money could buy, He talked about buying more. More equipment would help him to climb better. The air changed and fog enveloped them. “I would love to get my bachelor''s degree.” He heard her say through the mist. He was in control and she allowed it. Because she was taking longer than he thought she should, He panicked and let go of the rope. She saw her dreams crashing on the rocks below. She fell but only sprained her ankle. God cushioned her fall. She got up and they continued to climb. He complained because she was not leading enough. He only thought of himself. The path became quiet and peaceful. Contentment settled over the mountain. He was bored. He became distant and shut her out He consulted with his friends on the path He only wanted the action and the glory. “Climbing is not fun anymore,” he said “I never really liked it in the first place It is not what I expected it would be.” God was with her when he abandoned her HE encouraged her to start a new adventure With HIS help, her pain slowly began to heal. She wondered how he was doing He was walking down the mountain, A strange woman was leading him. She looked back up at the mountain, Her feet felt as light as air She turned and began to climb on her new path.September 17, 2004
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The child needs to break from its parents In order to become independent So the spirit can grow. Each part of the partnership Needs to break down In order to become one. A loaf of bread Needs to be broken Before it can be eaten. A full cup of tea Can not attain more Unless some is given up. In order to grow Old ways have to go So new ones can be learned. The cocoon needs to be broken The larvae must crawl out So it can become a butterfly. God breaks us down Testing us and challenging us Filling the void with HIS love. Just as Jesus died on the cross So, too, must we die So God can give us new life.June 22, 1998
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The ebb and flow of love It's in giving love That we receive love Mother's love for her child Comes no matter What the child does The love of partners Takes two parts To make a partnership Selfishness and ego Two whole parts Trying to make one Together they Serve no purpose But loneliness and pain Each part has their strengths Each part has their weaknesses Together they make a whole Problems and challenges Worked through together Bring the two parts closer Each day is different Today one leads and the other follows Tomorrow the leadership changes The sea of love Controlled by the moon and stars Comes and goes, but never fades.April 4, 2004
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Anchor heart Pressure chamber lungs Tree moving breathe Dark gray fog Rolls over mind Traffic slows to snail pace The loss of someone you love The loss of ego The loss of a way of life Tears push over the floodgates Torrential downpours Endless flow Muted minutes Life as we know it Ceases to exist Behind the scenes God's work continues HE has a plan Self must die So the new can emerge This is God's wayApril 2, 2004
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Mother left when I was two. Game back for visits until I was ten. Then they stopped. Never really knew my father. He had no time for me. Fast cars and fast women were his thing. Gram was a perfectionist She wanted a dainty girlie girl. I was a clumsy clod. Peers made fun of me. I lived with grandparents. I was adopted. My first ex was abusive. First verbally, then physically. She moved in the week after I left. My second discarded me. Dumped like yesterday's garbage. She moved in before my stuff was even gone. Shyness is my defense Solitude is my companion. God knows my pain.March 31, 2004
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Each of us have our daily struggles We dream our dreams We ask for God's help. One day just as things are beginning to crest The goal is on the horizon Our boat suddenly springs a leak. Then it's time for the life boat The life preserver - just in case And a prayer that God is with us. We go over the side Into the dark unknown waters Hopeful that we will prevail. The seas are high The wind is strong Our resolve wanes. God gives to those who are strong All HE asks in return Unconditional love. The storm subsides The sun comes out And God is by our sideMarch 31, 2004
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God speaks to us through words Love Forgiveness Kindness Compassion God hears us through actions Prayer Mass Rosary Meditation God helps us through people Parents Friends Enemies Lovers God shows us his mercy through miracles Five loaves and two fish Healing the sick The crippled walk The blind see God shows us his beauty through nature Rainbows Rainstorms Sunshine Stars God teaches us through lessons Patience Illness Grief Loneliness God shows us his love through grace Abundance Joy Peace LoveMarch 17, 2004
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The Dictator wants to see me I walk up the steps of the city hall It is now his office. The friendly gothic structure Has become ominous It's stone facade looms over me. The massive front doors With their large ornate handles Swing open at my touch. The foyer is lightless Stale air invades my nose My eyes adjust to the dark. Ahead of me is another door It's ten feet tall and made of mahogany The tarnished brass handles beckon. The door swings open without a sound To reveal a long empty corridor My steps fall soundlessly. And the end of the corridor is another door This one is sturdy oak Dark and plain. Behind it, another long corridor The paneled walls are smooth My feet glide over the hardwood floor. Many doors and many corridors Until I finally enter a large room A windowless, stifling room. In one corner is an old fashioned tripod camera A faceless man stands beside it Holding the t-square flash. I stand with my back against the wall The flash blinds me I stand immobile while the lens opens and closes. A moment frozen in time Today my picture Tomorrow the gas chamber. My old life has ended A new one has begun I walk through a new door. The dictators are gone Grandmother, ex-husbands Lovers and friends. Some I created Some I allowed All because I would not listen to my heart. I am no longer a slave to others I have become strong God has healed my pain. HE has given me a new life New courage to stand up for myself I am no longer subservient. My old life is dead A new adventure is ahead of me God walks with me.March 8, 2004
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Dance of life One leads, one follows Control and submission Music of the heart Feet follow Blood pumping beat Gliding across the glass Two people together as one Becoming one with the music Twirling and turning Around and around Repeating a pattern Passionate and sultry Quick and fast Slow and methodical Ring around the rosy Youthful hip-hop Weathered waltzes Many choices, many partners Parents, siblings, lovers Father, Son, Holy SpiritFebruary 29, 2004
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Morning dawns Prayer or shower Food or fast Exercise faith or body Pray later. Busy day at work Phones and email Meetings and appointments Mail to be answered Pray later. Home from work Dinner and dishes Unwind in front of the TV Pay bills Pray later. Jesus waits He will not forget you He is patience personified He loves you Pray now.February 29, 2004
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Mired in mud Unable to move Stagnant Fear of the unknown Fear of failure Fear of the future Bone chilling fear Mind numbing fear Frozen in time fear Safety in the past Home and history Safe as a pillar of salt Remember the good times Release the nightmares Move on Let Go -- Let God Live for today - yesterday is a memory Tomorrow is a gift A new adventure beckons New horizons to conquer Unlimited possibilities Give God the reins Acknowledge His wisdom Follow His plan Forgiveness of the past Acceptance of the future HE will show us the way.February 22, 2004
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dull ache heavy heart listless sun-less sunset dark sunrise dry rainy day song-less birds scent-less flowers leaf-less trees finger-less gloves sole-less shoes leg-less pants head-less dolls wheel-less trucks color-less crayons glass-less windows roof-less home door-less entryway path-less journey end-less tunnel dry river bed sun-less days moon-less nights time-less minutes sound-less cries pain and agony death on a crossFebruary 16, 2003
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God fills my lonely heart with love He comforts me He makes me feel whole. His love makes me strong Slaying the dragons in my mind Demons vanquished, my mind is at peace Over the boundaries of time His love is immortal True unconditional love. A companion, a lover, a father He walks my path with me My steps are light and carefree. I see His face I hear His voice I feel Him next to me. He is tall and majestic His voice is sweet and melodious His presence is calming. His eyes are soft and caring His skin glows His lips are the essence of love. We walk silently side by side Wordlessly speaking volumes He teaches me His ways. The journey is long Each day is an eternity His love carries me through.January 19, 2004
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Two friends in a green eden. One was an oak, study and tall, Who stood over a blanket of blueish purple forget me nots. The other, a willow, timid and unsure, Who helped shade a fragrant white bed of lilies of the valley They were together, for better or worse. Winds had blown about, And they withstood the rain and snow They weather two winters, And basked in the sultry sun of two summers. However, one cold dreary fall day, From out of nowhere, came a hurricane. Freight train winds came crashing through. The day was as dark as night. The night flashed as bright as day. The storm left as abruptly as it came. The sun came up and the forest was silent. Willow was alone. All that was left behind was a huge gaping hole. The sturdy, powerful oak was gone. The blanket of blueish purple forget me nots Seemed to weep over the colossal cavity The velvet hooded lilies of the valley weeped over the loss. No one could believe what had happened. The huge oak with its unyielding ways Could not stand up to the storms While in the end It was the flexible willow who turned out to be the strong oneJanuary 1, 2004
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Moaning and groaning Coming from the depths White wonder Cold and sterile Bright light from above Heat melting cold Creating many layers Always changing New layers forming Old ones melting away Each term a new layer Replaces the old Top layer changes constantly Sometimes rough and cracked Other times smooth as silk Sometimes naked - sometimes covered Over time the layers disappear Gone but never forgotten Returning again when the cold north winds Transform the lake once again.December 27, 2003
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Christmas is family time. Making memories. Sharing love and good tidings. Room filled with presents. Tinsel trimmed tree. Bountiful feast overflowing the table. But what those with no families? Hollow memories. No love to share. No presents. No tree. No food on the table. They share their love with a baby. Born in a manager. One cold winter's eve. The baby provides presents. Gaily decorated trees. Banquet for all those who are hungry.December 27, 2003
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Luminous orb reflecting off diamond studded velvet Warm or cold Slivers of silver slicing through a black satin sky Light or dark Wintry wind howling and moaning Deafening or peaceful Ominous oak overlooking the scene Young or old White capped water whispering its secrets Private or public Mother Nature reveals Change or stagnationDecember 16, 2003
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Male and Female Ying and Yang Acceptance Knowing their past Feeling their pain Understanding their choices Walking their path Seeing their demons Forgiveness Unconventional Unconditional Love Thy Neighbor as ThyselfNovember 25, 2003
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Friendship mirrors growth memories Family guidance protection history Forgiveness ultimate goal no ego unconditional love Forever friendship family forgiveness God's loveOctober 27, 2003
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Life and death Light and dark Good and evil Lessons to learn Advance and retreat Strong or weak Asleep or awake Choices God and/or Godless Help and/or helpless Hope and/or hopeless FaithSeptember 1, 2003
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We do we grieve? For death is but a transformation A trip from one world to another To loose one's physical form To be free of pain and suffering. But what of those left behind? The one with saddened hearts Missing their loved ones Wanting to touch their face Aching to hold them in their arms To look into their eyes just once more. Why are we angry? Anger at being left behind Having to carry on alone We turn on our fiends and even God We don't understand How could HE have allowed this to happen. The only question we really need to ask Is for God to help us Give us the light to see the truth The strength to understand The hope to know it's for the best And the faith to carry us to tomorrow.September 1, 2003
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It's 5:00 am and the pale light that proceeds the sun gently glides over the gray sky. The air on the deck is Granny Smith crisp. My feet leave their mark as they absorb the cool dew of the deck. The wind whistles through the pines like a lover's words whispered in my ear. A branch from the sapling sprouting its wings beside the deck gently caresses my face. The breeze ruffles across my head like weathered fingers running through my hair. The chill I feel disappears as I imagine strong athletic arms wrapped around me. I inhale the musky fragrance of his cologne. His deep, gravely voice calms and soothes me. I close my eyes and I am all alone on the beach. The sun is glistening gently off the water. The sand is warm and sifts through my toes as I walk. A gallant white horse approaches me. His rider is tall and dark. A deep crimson robe flies behind him as he rides toward me. He charges past and sweeps me off my feet. He holds me close as we gallop down the beach. The spray from the horse's hooves fans out behind us. I wonder who the tall dark rider is. I feel so comfortable and safe in his arms. I turn and look into the face of Jesus and know that I am loved.July 13, 2003
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A new adventure is unfolding, God has opened another door, The light beckons me. Change, my constant companion, Walks beside me Helping me over rough terrain. The new path is bumpy, Uneven, filled with pot holes, But it's also lined with beauty. Dark, dusty coal behind me, Bright blue sapphires ahead, I forge onward. I follow the light from above, The beacon that illuminates the dark, The path becomes easier. Each day bring new wonders, Miracles surround us all, All HE asks is that we open our eyes.July 6, 2003
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Voices lift to the heavens and rain down, as a icy fire that melts cold hearts, and inflames sleeping passions. Melodies that rise like eagles and, drop down like feathers, that help the tentative and the strong, sing together as one. Drawn by the music, magnificent angels join the choir, combining light and music, they create a celestrial harmony. Angels brush the keys, giving life to unborn songs, and timeless melodies seem radiant, with rhythms that everyone loves. Giving hope and intialling peace, everyone is transported to another dimension, where music is the key, to a world of love.July 28, 2006
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He has his Masters. He was unable to go for his Ph.D. She quit trying to get her Bachelor's. She wanted to help out. He was unhappy. He bought a house. He immediately wanted to change it. She liked it the way it was. She was glad to have a home. He was unhappy. He was healthy. He came down with a cold. She had Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. She tried not to complain. He was unhappy. He was never home. He occasionally did his own laundry. She tried to keep the house clean. She mowed knee high grass. He was unhappy. He wanted his own practice. He quit his job with insurance. She was laid off from her job. She tried to get a new job. He was unhappy. He told her she only needed to work part-time. He really wanted her to work full time. She thought he meant what he said. She never knew the truth. He was unhappy. He told her to wait for the right job. He told her not work for less than $10. She was willing to work for $9. She told the temp agencies her limit was $10. He was unhappy. He getting calls from bill collectors. He told her to get a job at McDonald's. She has a couple of good job prospects. She knew there was a job for her. He was unhappy. He crashed their "marriage" bus. He was driving his own bus. She was thrown out of her bus. She watched as his evil twin took over. He was unhappy. He wanted a divorce. He was concerned everything was in his name. She was taken for granted. She became invisible. He was happy.December 6, 2001
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Communication is the key That unlocks the soul That breaks down the walls Surrounding the heart. The courage to revel innermost thoughts To share secrets and dreams Transports couples to new territory The path to a new adventure. Reaching out and asking for help Requires the strength of Atlas Some fly with the speed of Hermes to safety Only to find their net was only a mirage. The journey is not an easy one Many lessons line the course Many forks and crossroads from which to choose The travelers choose which ones to take. The students select the lessons they've studied for And pray they pass the test The travelers accept the higher they climb The more difficult the challenges become The wisdom and knowledge they acquire Offset the discomforts they must bear The adventures accept and understand Their journey is the one true goal.November 23, 2001
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The pain in my heart is tearing me apart the thoughts in my head make me wish I were dead. The pain I feel is all too real it hurts so much it's painful to touch. I walk around in a daze I feel like I'm in a maze I can't seem to think I don't want to eat or drink. I cry every day I see no other way I know I need to stop I feel like a rag mop. I try to look on the bright side I can't help but see the dark side I am surrounded with despair I wonder if anyone really cares. I feel as though I've fallen into a big hole I wonder if I'll live the rest of my life as a mole I want to get out I'm overwhelmed with doubt. I see a bright light I struggle with all my might I see there is a reason and a plan I know God is here to help all he can. All I need to do is to pray and to be true to myself and to my loved ones my stuggles will be overcome.May 25, 1999
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Friendships old and new Friendships tried and true Friendships good and bad Friendships happy and sad Friendships love and caring Friendships compassion and understandingApril 25, 1999
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March 30, 1999To Be Added Later
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The eyes of man see a birth defect. The eyes of God see a birth perfection. The eyes of man see a child beater. The eyes of God see a beaten child. The eyes of man see a criminal. The eyes of God see a troubled person. The eyes of man see a garbage collector The eyes of God see an honest worker. The eyes of man see a gay person. The eyes of God see a loving person. The eyes of man see a hobo. The eyse of God see a world traveler. The eyes of man see a homeless person. The eyes of God see a needy person. The eyes of man see a juvenile delinquent. The eyes of God see a neglected child. The eyes of man see a losing team. The eyes of God see a team with potential. The eyes of man see a poor person. The eyes of God see a rich person. The eyes of man see a prostitute. The eyes of God see a woman looking for love. The eyes of man see an overweight person. The eyes of God see a kind person. The eyes of man see someone unemployed. The eyes of God see someone searching for direction. The eyes of man see colored skin. The eyes of God see a rainbow. The eyes of man see a welfare mother. The eyes of God see a woman doing her best. The eyes of man see senior citizens. The eyes of God see unappreciated treasures. The eyes of man see old fashioned The eyes of God see timeless. The eyes of man see slow. The eyes of God see gifted. The eyes of man see limited The eyes of God see unimited The eyes of man see ugly The eyes of God see beautiful. The eyes of man see love The eyes of God see unconditional love.March 14, 1999
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Scattered along the beach Moving with the tide Rolling with the flow Many sizes and colors Pure shells Royal shells Social shells Reclusive shells Some healthy and whole Blessings from the universe Some chipped and brittle Casualties of the system Some lost without direction Not knowing if they are coming or going Some with a vision and a plan To do their share to help the world Some hidden in the sand Staying in the background Some visible for all to see Sharing their vision with the world Whether lost or found Whether hidden or visible No matter what shape or color Being able to make a differenceFebruary 27, 1999
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The winds were calm and light The sky was clear and blue The sun was warm and bright The day was uneventful However, as evening approached The barometer began to drop. The clouds were moving in. The sky was getting gray. She did not see the signs. Soon the day was gone. The evening was here. The air was changing. Out of nowhere came the storm. She was not prepared The storm was too strong. Gale force winds She was blown about like a rag doll. She had no control. Torrential downpour The rain came steaming down She could not stop it. Big threatening storm clouds Covered over the sky. She was could not see. Deafening thunder Rocked through the skies She could not hear. Bolts of lightening Sudden flashes of light She felt as if her head would explode. The air was dense. Heavy and smothering She could not breathe. Trees were falling Limbs were all around her She could not run. The storm was everywhere It was all around She was trapped She could not take it anymore. She knew she had to do something. She felt so helpless. She screamed. She pushed at the storm. She fought back. Suddenly the storm stopped. She hesitated Was she doing the right thing? She was confused. The storm was beginning again. The eye was past. She knew the storm would return. The storm has no remorse. She ran as fast as she could. She heard the storm behind her. The ground was cold She stopped and looked back This time the storm was helpless. She was finally free!February 27, 1999
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Thank you Lord for giving me a love to share for giving me a heart to care Thank you Lord for the chance to give or my life to live. Thank you Lord for giving me a voice to sing for angel's wings and other heavenly things. Thank you Lord for helping me to feel for knowing what is real. Thank you Lord for a world filled with love for the pleasure of seeing a dove. Thank you Lord for giving me my dreams for showing me what they mean. Thank you Lord for the literature that I have read for the poetry that comes into my head. Thank you Lord for the words that you give to me for a way to help others feel free. Thank you Lord for giving me good health for showering me with wealth. Thank you Lord for giving me more than money can buy for the earth - the wind - and the sky. Thank you Lord for my family and my friends for their support that never ends. Thank you Lord for giving me every day for showing me the way.February 14, 1999
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Reaching into the darkness Retrieving the memories stored there Removing the tape that binds them Disturbing the dust that has settled there Opening up and bringing in the light. Memories long forgotten Some painful, some happy Mementos from childhood days Treasures from happy times Re-lived emotions and feelings from the past. What to toss out and what to keep? Needing to travel light Traveling a new path Leaving the past behind Moving onto a new life. Leaving behind the physical remains Keeping the memories We never really forget Memories stay with us forever Molding us into who we are today.July 21, 1998
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Some days the path is clear, you ride easily. Other days it is strewn with obstacles, you ride carefully. Some days the road is smooth, you glide along effortlessly. Other days it is filled with speed bumps, you bounce along slowly. Some days you ride slow, smelling the flowers as you go. Other days you burn up the road, trying to beat the clock. Some days the traffic is heavy, you hurry up and wait. Other days there is no one else on the road, you sail along briskly. Some days the wind is at your back, pushing you forward. Other days it is in your face, impeding all forward movement. Some days the sun is shining, helping brighten your day. Other days it is behind the clouds, forcing you to use your own light. Some days you ride up hill, striving and pushing. Other days it is down hill, relaxing and coasting. Some days you pedal, learning about independence. Other days you use the motor, learning about dependence. Whatever the road and weather conditions, you are never alone. It could be woodland nymphs, bringing peace and joy. It could be spirit guides, bringing wisdom and learning. It could be guardian angels, bringing faith and courage. They tag along to keep you company, and help you on your journey. Flying behind to push you, along the smooth roads and with the wind behind you. Flying ahead to encourage you, along the rough roads and through the tough weather. Some days riding on your shoulders, as you coast along.June 22, 1998
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Sometimes I wonder why I have chosen the paths that I have. There are times when I feel sorry for myself because my life has not been easy. Then I see people who lives are infinitely worse than mine and I am thankful for all the gifts that I have been given. I have done the best I could. Sometimes I wonder why my parents abandoned me at such an early age. It was an epoch when divorce was not common. I was viewed as someone to be pitied. How could my parents do this to me? They were doing the best they could. Sometimes I wonder why my grandmother was such a tyrant. She really believed it was in my best interests that she make all my decisions for me. She was trying to make my life easier. She was doing the best she could. Sometimes I wonder why my grandfather allowed my grandmother to be so domineering. He loved her. He understood what she needed and did step in when she went too far. He was doing the best he could. Sometimes I wonder why my mother only raised one of her six children. She left them behind because of circumstances she felt were beyond her control. Like me, she allowed other people to dictate to her and make her decisions for her. She was doing the best she could. Sometimes I wonder why my father refuses to have any contact with me. He is afraid. He is unable to take any responsibility for his own actions and needs to blame someone for his unhappiness. He is doing the best he can. Sometimes I wonder why my older brother is so angry. He truly hates our grandparents. Like his father he is afraid to take responsibility. He is doing the best he can. Sometimes I wonder why my younger brother is so much like the older brother he has never even seen. He too is afraid and is using his religion as a shield to keep people away. He is unaware of what he is doing. He is doing the best he can. Sometimes I wonder why I married the man I did. I was searching for the love I could not get from my grandparents. I was too naive to understand the difference between my grandmother’s dominance and the dominance of a troubled man. I was doing the best I could. Sometimes I wonder why I did not see the signs. I was not a drinker and so did not understand what the boundaries were. I do not know what made one a social drinker and the other an alcoholic. I was doing the best I could. Sometimes I wonder why my ex-husband beat me up. After he did it he told the marriage counselor that he felt no remorse. He could not admit he was an alcoholic with a problem. He was doing the best he could. Sometimes I wonder why I am so different. Why am I stronger? Why have I chosen to accept my fate and even to be thankful? I am doing the best I can. Sometimes I wonder why gifts can be viewed as either painful or joyful. Some gifts seem to be painful. But that is only because they are worth more. The joyful gifts are easy to understand. It is the painful ones that help us to grow. My faith in God and my love for my neighbor have been my greatest gifts. I have learned to appreciate all the gifts I have received - the painful and the joyful. I have been given a wonderful sight. The ability to see past the pain to the joy. I want to help others to see through my eyes, to share my hope with those who have been blinded by their pain.March 1, 1999
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